Wednesday, 26 July 2017

I Don't Know You

I don't know you, but I know I love you,

And I can't really explain why.

It doesn't make any sense, I've never even met you,

But something inside me says I have to try.

So I keep on pushing, and saving, and working hard,

To make this dream come true.

And every setback, every loss, every failed attempt,

Crushes me and pushes me further from you.

They said I'd probably never meet you,

They said you might never exist.

But there was still a chance and I couldn't stand by,

So we got put on the waiting list.

I thought the waiting was the hardest part,

Worse than the drugs, the needles, and all the tests.

But what really hurt was the heartache I felt,

Every time I thought of you, deep in my chest.

All I want is to be a proud father,

And to make you proud of me.

To help you, and guide you, and watch you grow up,

Into the man or woman you're meant to be.

But it seems so far away these days,

Like it's over and done, and washed away.

At this point I'd do anything,

But it's out of my hands, it's not up to me, all I can do is pray.

I know I love you, but I don't know you,

But I'll get my chance someday.

To teach you to run and jump, and to make you laugh,

It can't be that far away.

So I'll keep on pushing, and saving, and working hard,

So that I can be there for you.

After all, you're my heart and my soul,

The last part that's missing, the final piece to make me whole.


  1. <3 I love you both so much, and pray for the day your dream becomes reality! You have both fought so hard for this and deserve it more then most. I pray that one day it all pays off and your little bundle of joy will be all the reward you could ask for.

  2. So much emotion here.

  3. I started reading your blog tonight and stayed up much too late because I couldn't stop reading. Your story is heartbreaking, but I have hope that it will have a happy ending. Thanks for sharing your story. You guys will be amazing parents.